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V. 4.5::
Name: Sweet Dreams
Posterchibi: Tsuzuki-inu
Series: Yami no Matsuei

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Quiz and Test Results

Archive:
November 1, 2002 - November 17, 2002
October 8, 2002 - October 30, 2002
September 9, 2002 - October 6, 2002
August 5, 2002 - September 6, 2002
July 20, 2002 - August 2, 2002
July 11, 2002 - July 19, 2002
June 28, 2002 - July 10, 2002
June 21, 2002 - June 26, 2002

Friends:
Edo
Matt
Todd

Blogs:
enlightenment / Astarise
something witty / Codi
prodigious / Cori
goldfish / goldfish
JenTech Productions / Jen
space between / Keri
star scream / Kim
temporary mitten / Ko
From the mind's eye / Kouri
Vital Access / Kurot
Angel Egg / Lez
Lunitic Gate / mellie
entropy / mifyuu
Just a little bitchy / Mura
Helicon / starfire
the emotive room / Torumi

Web Comics:
Arcana
Boy meets Boy
Jade Sparkle
MegaTokyo
Okashina Okashi
Penny Arcade
Saturnalia
Slanted Minds
Sparkling Generation Valkyrie Yuuki
Your Wings Are Mine

Anime / Manga Clique:

Omi ♥squick♥ Nagi

*I sleep with my Leni plushie!*

«« Weapon || Sanzo's || revoler »»

*Addict :: Shigure Sohma

Jrock Cliques:

Misc. Cliques:

« seiyuu ¤ Toshihiko Seki »

I nyah, do you?

i © strawberry pocky

Adopted:

Friday, December 13, 2002
Gackt - Secret Garden

Who is Mari's favorite guitarist?

Mana or Aiji
Mana or Aiji

Mana looks so pretty in those gothic dresses.
But Aiji looks so good in his short shorts.

Mana or Aiji
Mana or Aiji
...can't...decide...!! >_<

...
Also doesn't help me much if I have Gackt's voice in my head at the moment -_-;

Friday, December 13, 2002
Music: Dir en grey - Akuro no Oka

Sakuno sucks

Why is it that I always seem to have a problem with the love interest of the main character in every anime series? I have just started watching a few episodes of Prince of Tennis and I already wanna slap that girl. Maybe it's the lack of a backbone, I don't know.

Happy Big Be-lated Birthdays to goldfish and Mura! Sorry I couldn't say it any sooner. School's eating up too much of my time ><

And in other news, I have a new layout and will be putting it up after I fill this one up. I didn't make it this time so it'll look really nice ^^;

Mmmm... fangirly.

You're a bishounen!

You're male, but people often mistake you for the other option. You're unfeasibly thin and pretty and always have perfect hair, often surrounded by sparkles/sakura/roses. You almost certainly have a tragic backstory which involves one or more of your parents, and are liable to have a Tragic Destiny (TM). You were almost certainly invented by a female mangaka, are worshipped by a female audience, and your life is characterised by periods of extreme pain and angst. Sucks to be you. Which generic anime character are you?

...why am I suddenly thinking of Kamui? ^^;

Hey, did anyone notice that today's Friday the 13th? ^___^ Hee hee...

Tuesday, December 10, 2002
Music: Dir en grey - Cage

Yay! He's back to normal!

*throws confetti around* Sloane's not a vampire! Sloane's not a vampire! Wa~i! Now the Sloane x Holden goodness will start again! ...I hope ^^; Oh Kelly-sama, please provide us with more SxH...please? ^^;

What's wrong with them together> I think they're cute ^_^ Two of my favorite Jrockers going after each other...doesn't that sound nice ^__^

Monday, December 9, 2002
Music: Gackt - Dooms day

Yet another Saiyuki result

Which Saiyuki Character are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

Yay! Never thought I'd be him though...

Mari got new sunglasses! They're your ordinary sporty kind of glasses but Mari still likes them ^_^ It was pretty expensive too. But Mom paid half of it of me. Of course, it was out of her Christmas present to me so...

Wow, almost half of the school year has gone by. That was fast...

Tuesday, December 3, 2002
Music: Pierrot - Agitator

Not quite addicted but...

兄さん got Sims. Mari has been playing Sims for the past four to five hours. Finally got off Sims. Very Evil Game! Distracts Mari too much >_<

You're a blowjob reference that noone but a Gackt-tard would understand.
How you came to be, noone will probably ever know- just like Gackt's perversions.
One thing you have above others is Engrish originality. Not to mention that you wanna need, not betray.
How many people can honestly say that for themselves?

Which Engrish Hilarity Are You? Test made by: Docudrama.

Aw well. I still like that song anyway ^_^

*looks at cliques* Wow, the list just keeps growing... -_-;

Friday, November 29, 2002
Music: hide - Pink Spider

Things that Mari is thankful for

I know, it's a little late for me to be writing one. I was a little too busy yesterday to actually think of a list. But everyone else is doing one so why not?
Besides my history teacher assigned writing an "I'm thankful for" list for extra credit over the four day weekend ^_^

So yeah anyways I am thankful for:

• my family. Parts of them at least
• my friends, real and blog ones *hugs*
• my doggie *squeeze*
• my Leni plushie *squeeze squeeze* ^^
• my lovely manga collection, filled with bishounen and shounen ai ^^
• Jrock music. My stress-reliever
• my lovely singing voice ^^ Eh? Does that sound too conceded? ^^;
• air conditioning. Especially from where I live -_-;
• and the fact that I'm still healthy, have food on the table and a roof over my head, and all that what not

Hope ya guys had a great Thanksgiving! ^_^

Thrusday, November 28, 2002
Music: Dir en grey - Myaku

Happy Turkey Day, Peoples!

Hope you guys will be eating a lot of turkey today like I am ^_^ Family just had a nice turkey lunch with my gramma and uncle at this nice little resturant and later tonight we'll will be going to my aunty's thanksgiving party. So yeah I'm gonna be gaining pounds this vacation ^^;

Now if you'll excuse me, I shall continue watching that Purina Dog Show thingie that's on right now...
Kya~, they're so cuuute! ^___^

Monday, November 26, 2002
Music: Plastic Tree - Tremolo

わ~い!

My Mommy bought me s'more いちご ポッキー! ^_^
Wa~i! 母ちゃん 大好き! ^_^

Survey thingie taken from Lez.

-you-
Name: Mari
Age: almost 18 ^_^
Sex: Female
height: 5'1
school: still in high school ^_^

-family-
position in family: Youngest
relationship with mother: Pretty good. As long as you don’t piss her off >_<
relationship with father: a little unstable
relationship with siblings: All right. 兄さん can be a pain in the butt sometimes but we get along most of time.
at family gatherings you are: on my best behavior ^^;
concerning family matters you are: understandable
are you the black sheep?: I don’t think so ^^;

-addictives-
smoke?: Nope
drink?: Don’t care for alcohol much
junk food?: Yup ^_^
drugs?: Nope. Cause Mari’s a good girl ^_^
are you a pill popper?: No

-yourself-
what do you pride yourself in?: My singing and acting
what is your greatest flaw?: Can’t pay attention on one thing for a long time
do you cry often?: No
do you get angry easily?: sometimes ^^;
do you believe in yourself?: Most of the time
are you very insecure?: Not really
do you often think of death?: Not really
do people get you?: I don’t think so ^^;
are you a positive/negative person?: neutral
do you whine a lot?: Only when I really don’t like something ^^
are you stubborn?: Kinda ^^;
a song that most reflects you: Yami ni Furu Ame by Shiina Ringo
a quote to represent you: none at the moment

-relationships-
are you with anybody?: no
if so do you love them?: probably not
do you have a crush on anybody?: Only on anime characters and Jrockers
do you think they like you back?: I dunno, what do you think? ^_^
how many times have you been in love?: once
in lust?: Maaany times. Usually with a Jrocker ^_^
how many times have you been hurt?: many times
how many times have you hurt someone?: probably a few times
how many of your ex's remained your friends?: never went to that stage
out of sight out of mind?: yesh ^_^
love at first sight?: not really
soul mates?: Are there such things?
hetero, homo, bi?: Not sure at the moment. Try again later ^^;
face or personality?: Both? ^_^; Well, if I had to choose it would probably be the face
love or money?: Money ^_^
had sex?: Tee hee ^_^
waiting for mr. right? or mr. right now?: none

-favourites-
song: Uh I got lots of them. Most of them sung by Gackt. I love his voice *_*
color: white, then would come black
food: Ichigo Pocky! ^_^ No seriously it would probably be something like roasted chestnuts or mochi
weapon of self-mutilation: ...hai? ^_^
article of clothing: any of my Gothic Lolita clothes
thing to do: Sing! ^_^ Karaoke! ^__^
book: don’t have any
movie: don’t have any
musicians: Heh heh, a whole shitload ^_^ ::points to left side bar::

-recently-
cried: Thrusday… -_-
laughed: Earlier today ^_^
smiled: A few minutes ago ^_^
shouted: Probably a day aor so ^^;
tried to commit suicide: …hai? ^_^
watched a movie: Uh, gee it’s been a while ^^;
done something productive: Uh…I can’t remember >_<
pissed someone off: That I’m not sure
read a book: I’m reading Fighting Ruben Wolfe at the moment
talked to your parents: with Mom a few minutes ago
poured your heart and soul out to someone: ? Why would I ever do that?
hurt someone on purpose: I try not to
got hurt by someone: Thrusday…-_-
embarrassed yourself: Tuesday ><
got humiliated: Gee I dunno; maybe a few years ago?
felt like you didn't belong: maybe a week ago; I can’t remember
felt like you belonged: Only when I’m with my friends
was content: It’s been awhile…

Wa~, pretty Saiyuki pics! *_* Pretty Sanzo pics!! ::glomps goldfish:: Love yer new site. Love yew as well ^_^

Which female jrocker are you? Quiz by OM : Indira

Sadly the only female Jrockers I know that's on there is her and Kana. Don't know who the rest of them are. >_<

Wow. You know what? Last night or maybe I should say this morning ^^ I only had two hours of sleep >< All cause I had to finish that stupid English essay that was due tomorrow. Hey I couldn't help it. I had performances on Saturday and Sunday. Now that I think of it, I slept halfway through English class, didn't I? ^^; Aw well...

EDIT: *relieved sigh* So Sloane's probably not gonna die. That's nice to know. -_- Although I do hope there is a way to change him back to his cute cuddly self.

Monday, November 25, 2002
Music: none

After the final show, helping take down the set, and the party:
I feel so dead x_x

Saturday, November 23, 2002
Music: Shiina Ringo - Honnou

Wah~

Gimme back my cute widdle Sloane!!

*sniff* poor thing... T_T

EDIT: Just thought I'd let people know that I'm feeling a little better now after that incident. In fact my mom decided to be really nice and bought my all sort of goodies at this craft fair we to later on ^_^ Cookies and taro chips, she even brought me these spiffy looking pair of slippers/geta thingies ^__^ Oh and tommorow's our last showing. マリ, がんばりま~す! ^_^

EDIT: Kyaha! Cori, かわいい~! XD

Thursday, November 21, 2002
Music: the brillant green - angel song ~eve no kane~

I feel like shit

I wake up this morning and find out that my menses have started. But since I didn't want to miss today's performance, I decide to stick a tampon in and go to school.

Now usually whenever I have my period they don't hurt as much as other peoples' do. The only time I really get cramps are on the first day. And for some strange reason it hurts even more when I use a tampon. But I didn't want to stain my tights or anything so decided to use it anyway. Better safe than sorry, right?

Well even though I was in quite a bit of pain, I still tried my best acting out my part and being as enthusiastic as I could be. But I guess people started noticing how I wasn't as active today (Plus I was being a little bitchy to people off stage so I guess that kinda got peoples' attention as well) and my drama teacher/director asked me if I was sick. I told her about my menses and she decided to tell everybody else since I wasn't feeling well to try to cover up for me if I mess up. And then when my teacher leaves one of my senior classmates comes up to me saying that she understands that I have my period but doesn't feel that other people should cover for me and that I should at least try to act with energy.

What the fuck is that suppose to mean? It's not like I'm skipping out of a peformance because it's the time of the month. Hell, despite the pain I was doing my best entertaining the stupid little brats. I doubt she could do any better if she had her's too.
But I didn't say any of that to her, being the nice person (and idiot) I am. After all I didn't want people to think I was being a bitch or anything.
So on the second show I tried even harder to do my part. I was overeacting at evreything, my voice was almost louder than everyone else's, basically the whole works. Just so that she or anybosy else wouldn't have to say anything bad about my performance.

Then the pain kicks in, 3 times as worse than before.

After I got dressed and cleaned up, I went to one of my teachers' classroom. He noticed that I was in tears and asked what was wrong. I decide to tell him everything from this morning to after the play ended. He told me about all this stuff about how serious a period could be when it hurts and all that junk and told me that I should go home.

So with the help of him and my mom (who came to pick me up and let me miss my class), I'm home from school early, typing this entry on the computer. I'm still a little mad at what that girl said to me. Maybe I should have told her off or something. Honestly, she really didn't act very "energenically" in the first show, even though she didn't have her menses or was in pain. I do know that she was going through a lot now but I still think she should at least understand other people's problems and not only her own.

Wednesday, November 20, 2002
Music: Shiina Ringo - Tsumiki Asobi

New survey and quiz result

Taken from Codi I believe. Or was it from Lez? Argh, I can't remember! >_< Aw well.

1. What's the first thing you remember wanting to be when you grew up?: A teacher, I think
2. Describe a dream you remember: a miscellaneous Jrocker screwing me XD
3. What book are you reading?: None at the moment
4. What colour are your sheets?: Lavender
5. What song is in your head right now?: Shiina Ringo’s “Yattsuke Shigoto”
6. Waitaminnit... Where are you?: By the computer, where else?
7.I am afraid of...: rejection
8. Your day job/dream job: seiyuu/singer! XD
9. What movie have you seen the most times?: Monty Python and the Holy Grail XD
10. One question for Jesus, or Buddha or Muhammed, etc: Nothing at the moment
11. The guilty pleasure you'd really rather not admit to here: That I love Reni? ^^;
12. Comfort food of choice: Candy. Not chocolate, but lots and lots of candy. ^^
13. What's the last video you rented?: Hand Maid May. I can’t help it; she’s so cute… ^^;
14. Who do people say you look like?: I came from Japan, which I didn’t. ^^;
15. What's the bane of your existence?: I dunno. What’s considered bane to people?
16. What's the last thing you found on the ground and picked up?: a penny. I’m now one cent richer. ^^
17. A writer worth reading: No one at the moment
18. Where would you like to grow old?: somewhere that’s nice
19. A word of wisdom: …nya?
20. The question you get asked ALL THE TIME!!!: “Are you from Japan?”
21. When was your last hospital visit?: Never had to go to one personally.
22. The last thing you said out loud: “Nya”
23. Current clothing: Hard Rock shirt and plaid shorts. Comfy clothes ^_^
24. Your favourite season: Fall/Winter
25. In my last lifetime I was probably: a cat. Nya. ^^

Which Member of SHAZNA Are You?
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Wa~i! Izam-chan! ^_^ Kawaii~!

Tuesday, November 19, 2002
Music: Shiina Ringo - Yattsuke Shigoto

Sorry...

I am way too busy with school and the kids play to make a decent layout so you'll just hafta stand for this sad excuse for a layout thing ><

Yes, today was another play day. No cute little pre-Ks or Kinders, only old sassy kids. >< Ugh, I was so tired during the play, I screwed up by miscounting the money for the piper on stage. >///< あ~, もう 恥ずかしい~! Everyone kept saying stuff like "Ha ha~, Johann (me) can't count!" after the show. Even the brats were doing it! T_T Now I'll be bugged about that for the rest of the play!

XD Saiyuki fans must look at this page. In fact Sanzo fans who doesn't mind a little yaoi like me should look at this, really. It's worth it. ::looks:: *BU* Gyahaha~~~! XD
Sanzo: ::vein pops:: ::points revolver at Mari:: *click*
Mari: Eep! ::runs away::
::hear loud gun shots from far off::

::points above:: Another sign of someone cracking, by the way. ^///^;

::reads latest Arcana:: Whattafuck?! Okay Sloane's probably not gonna die. That's nice to know. But he can't have Holden either. In fact he's gonna be turned into a fucken vampire just because he was protecting the one he loved! >_< Goddammit, why can't they have each other? I want more Sloane X Holden lovin'!

Was cleanin' up my results and decided to take this one again:

What Hit Female J-Artist Song Are You?

Wa~, I got "Gibbs"! My favorite Shiina Ringo song! ^_^

Oh and that ::points at Marbolo Red Soft:: That's for Sanzo, not for me. Mari doesn't smoke cause Mari is a good girl! ^__^ That and smoking is kinda bad for my asthma so, yeah ^^; I only have a little of it but somehow the smoke just triggers it, ya know.